Questions like these feel never ending, feel like there is no answer though I know there must be. Questions like these are frustrating because I don't know where the answer is, or how to go about finding it, or if the answer has been there all along, or if it is still there and I'm just blind to it.

 "I saw my whole life as if I'd already lived it. An endless parade of parties and cotillions, yachts and polo matches. Always the same narrow people, the same mindless chatter. I felt like I was standing at a great precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who cared... or even noticed."