hate

I seriously would love to just SCREAM at the top of my lungs right now. I hate you. I hate that you give me so many reasons to. I hate that I will never be able to explain this to anyone because they would never understand. I hate that I would rather not explain this to anyone because I don't want them to know how completely shitty you are making my life. But I guess the secret is (almost) out now. Fuck you.

P.S. I am trying my hardest to care about you, to give you space, to love you, to respect you, to give you another chance. It is easier said than done. You are hurting me, you are hurting her and you are making no effort to fix your mistakes. If I don't hate you, then I guess I just hate this.