leaving.

How emotional have I been lately?! I don't even know why! I'm not actually upset. Everything is going great. I passed my ballet exam! Even though I did absolutely horribly. Apparently the examiner realized I was just having a mind blank and my technique was still decent so that's good. And DANA IS BACK HOME! It's a long story but she came to dance tonight to surprise us! I missed her so much! I actually started crying because I am unstable. Andddd tomorrow is cultus lake waterslides with all the dance girls!!! :) so excited and happy that I don't have to drive myself there thanks to Kiley, because it's a long drive that I don't feel like doing. I hope the weather is good but if it rains that's fine. I honestly can't even process that this is the end. I know people say it's just the beginning but it really feels like the end. That was embarrassing when I just full on started crying after giving someone a plastic duck. Not that the two were related. Oh yeah, you know, ducks just make me really emotional. Especially when they're plastic and sitting in a tub full of water. No, but I guess it just hit me that the past 5 years are coming to an end. It doesn't really matter what else is in the future, because although I don't doubt that it will be awesome, it's still really sad to leave all of this behind. I will miss everything about it, even the things I complained about. I will miss my teachers and all the kids and the cute guys and having a locker and eating lunch on the field and pulling the fake grass out of the fake lawn and the teacher's that actually care and seeing my best friends every day. I will really really miss it. I know I can always go back and visit but really, it's not the same. This 5 years was so much better than I ever thought it would be. I wish it didn't have to end.