I am overwhelmed by how quickly the time goes by. Time is such a funny thing. To think that it is now 2012 and that I graduated from high school 6 months ago is crazy because for one, the time since grad has flown by so quickly, and yet strangely it feels like a lifetime ago that I was in high school. I feel like a lot has changed since then, and not in a stressful overwhelming sort of way, but in a much more natural way, like it was just how it was meant to go and change happened because if it hadn't happened chances are life would probably suck a little more than it does right now. In fact, it doesn't suck at all right now and a lot of the things that 6 months ago would have freaked me out feel natural. Even weirder still, things that I would have avoided before because I saw them as bad have become some of the reasons why I am now happier than I was 6 months ago. Well I don't know if happier is the right word but more content maybe. I feel like my life is simpler in a way. I no longer am dating someone or am even involved with a guy which is actually a nice feeling. I am no longer feeling, for lack of a better word desperate to be with someone and quite frankly I think that is a phase that everyone goes through at some point in their lives, probably several times. But after dating someone for a little while I came to realize that simply to be in a relationship is sort of similar to say, making a new friend. It is nice to know that person is there but it has to be the right person if it is going to mean something. It also doesn't matter how amazing that person might seem because in the end they have to be right for you. Also, my mum likes to remind me that love is something that will find you when you least expect it. She tells me to do what I love in life and the rest will follow. If I'm "following my dreams" and I am doing things that make me happy, the right person will show up somewhere. At least I sure hope so . If not maybe I will have to join Events and Adventures. Just kidding, no. So another thing that hasn't really changed but now that I no longer live in Maple Ridge and that I'm no longer dancing, I pretty much only have 3 close friends which appears to be better than I would have thought. Sometimes I wonder what the point of having a large group of friends is or surrounding myself with so many people when there are only a few in my life who make me truly happy. It only makes sense to be with those people. I am so happy to be free of high school because I finally feel like I am living more for me and less to please others.
So since New Years has just happened I suppose I should talk a little bit about that. 2011 is over. Crazy stuff. Like Mia and Georgie said, it has been a year of many firsts. Unfortunately my list is considerably longer and filled with stupider things than theirs, some of which are definitely firsts and lasts since I'd rather not repeat them. But I also feel like it was a year of growing up. Turning 18 meant finally being an adult which feels good. I learned so much this year, and had a lot of different experiences, good and bad. First kiss, license, first car, first job (well actually I guess that was 2010), first real job, first party, graduation, moving from maple ridge, first semester of university and more. Last true childhood summer of freedom, last year as a kid! It's sad but also so exciting to think of all the things I can do in the future now that I am free!
My resolutions. Well sometimes I feel like it's pointless since I suck at keeping them. But then I realized I was making them in my head anyways. So I guess I will say keeping up with certain things like exercising regularly, eating healthy, GOING TO SLEEP AT A NORMAL HOUR (already failing that one), working hard at my job, working even harder still at school, keeping in contact with old friends even when I start to get doubtful ( people change get over it! ), what else, well I'd like to read more often, and travel! I have several goals for trips planned. Other things I will keep to myself but I have so much I want to do and I'm afraid 2012 will go by too quickly and I will look back and won't have accomplished enough. So now is when I go to sleep since it's late and I need to get crack a lackin with all of these plans of mine!!!
peace out!
