day twenty three: something you always think "what if..." about.

I think the only thing I think "what if" about a lot is "what if my mum has gotten in a car accident". Whenever she's late coming home I worry. I know she's a really safe driver but I still worry because that doesn't mean other people are safe drivers. The other day she said she was coming home right after work and she didn't, and I don't know why but I actually bawled my eyes out for like an hour straight. I was full on freaking out (tessa thought I was crazy). And then I finally got in touch with her and I cried harder because I was so relieved that she was okay. "What ifs" are so annoying. Mostly because they are always irrational. You know in your head that it is so unlikely but you still worry. But it's also pointless. You could spend your whole life saying "what if" about anything and everything. Or you could just live.