I am more than a little frustrated right now. But I have to say it isn't necessarily bad frustration. Some might even call it motivation, inspiration, determination. I feel trapped where I am, I feel trapped in this city. I love it, I hate it. The other day I drove to Granville Island when I was done school, just on my own, just to remind myself why I love this city. Driving along First Ave I saw the first glimpse of the city and it gave me goosebumps. I love Vancouver so much. Yet at the same time I look at it and think, it seems so small. It is one tiny corner of this entire world. And the concept of the whole world just overwhelms me. It is actually surreal how huge the world is. And then I think, how is it possible to discover even one one hundredth of it. It seems crazy. It seems impossible. For the past few months I have had this absolutely insane urge to travel, like never before. I can't even actually express the feeling accurately. I can't put in words how badly I feel the need to get out of my own city, own province, own country, own continent, and really SEE the world. And not just see, but LIVE, EXPERIENCE it, I want to save money, and just get on a plane by myself and see where I end up. I want to experience the actual culture of other places. Thailand is definitely top of my list, especially after talking to so many friends at school about their trips and how incredible it was. I want to live it. I want to rough it in another country, I want the weight of a backpack on my back, sun creating beads of sweat on my face, and fresh earth on the soles of my feet. I want all of this and more. I want to swim in the seas of a thousand coastal towns. I want to breathe the air of another country. I want to give myself some perspective. I want to come even remotely close to experiencing what it is like to be a world traveller. So many people live there lives always wishing to travel, I don't want to be one of those people. I want to DO it. Less talk, more action. I want to come close to understanding just how crazy huge the world is, and how incredible, and beautiful, and colourful the culture and landscape are. I want out of my bubble of a place. Actually, it's more than just wanting. It's needing. I also want to be one of those people who is bold and determined enough to not just say I will do it but to do it. I will be. The Greece trip has been put on hold for now, but who says I can't go on my own? I don't have to go with my uncle, although that would be ideal. I don't care who goes with me, all I know is that I am not waiting around for anyone. I can and will make these trips happen. First stop, Finland in July!!
