i’m forgetting her. all i have are these words to describe her, like sarcastic, witty, kind. but these are the same words everyone uses to describe her, and it causes them to lose their significance. because shouldn’t i have a memory or a word or a thought about her that is entirely my own? why should every word be the same? i fear my memories are false memories, the way you look at a photograph and it triggers some sort of response. and then years later your mind is tricked into believing that you actually remember what colour dress you wore for your 3rd birthday, when in reality all you remember is one or two photographs and the rest is just made up. what if in this scenario the “photograph” is that one descriptive word that makes me believe that i remember her? but it doesn’t matter anyways because memories only last so long and they can’t replace the real thing.
