what hurt feels like

Pain like this is immeasurable. I can't feel myself breathing and I'm choking on pure air. This is how it feels. It is a constant ache. It is a constant yearning for something unattainable. It hurts so much that I don't know how to cope. It hurts so much that I want to end it but I know that I can't. I just need to put one foot in front of the other even though it is killing me inside.