I don't know where all of this is coming from but man do I feel like I have SO much living to do and not nearly enough time!!! I don't even know where to start. Mostly I just want to travel. Today as I was driving home from the aquarium I realized that something really has changed. This is something I left out of my previous post. Well I mentioned something similar but now it's time to elaborate. It's about independence. Maybe this won't come out sounding how I mean it but I'll try. I was realizing more and more how I like to be by myself. Not in a loner-ish way (although sometimes that's what it is) but more just in a way that I want to be anonymous but still surround myself with people. I enjoy the silence and just knowing nothing can really interrupt my thoughts. Being by myself is so different than being with other people. I feel like I am getting to know myself better, and I feel way more comfortable being alone. I realized that it's somewhat of a skill, to be alone and be comfortable with it. A skill I am nowhere near mastering! But I also think it's something people should learn from a way younger age. Well I think as kids we are better at it, but we grow up and society tells us we should never be alone. I feel a little bit like I am re quoting that "how to be alone" video. Maybe I am, but I watched that video ages ago and it feels like the message is really truly sinking in now. It's becoming more real for me. How can anyone be super comfortable with other people if they can't be comfortable by themselves? I am slowly learning to be my own best friend. Maybe it is all a little cliche. But the more I think about it the more it makes sense. Who understands me best? Who has all the time in the world to listen to me? Who is the one person in the entire world I can always rely on? Who will absolutely never leave my side? Well the answer is obvious, me. Now I sound crazy maybe I sound like a loner. Or maybe I'm just rediscovering myself, and learning to appreciate myself.
"lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.
if you're happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay."
