I miss blogging! I really need to update it more. Well what's new. I am sick, which sucks. Probably from partying too much lol, I think the alcohol and smoking pretty much did me in. So gross, going to be a while before I do that again. I am pretty content with my healthy lifestyle. I mean yeah I eat junk but who doesn't? At least I'm not getting wasted every night like some girls my age.

What else. School is over in two weeks, which is insane. This semester went by so fast, but it also felt a lot more stressful. Now that the worst of it is over though, I feel way better. I am super on top of things with homework, finished my english essay last night that isn't due for two weeks, basically done my portfolio, just have to study for a bio test on tuesday, and do my psych 4th hour activity, hand in those few assignments, then I'm finished my classes. Then I get a week off to study hard for my finals, two exams and I am free! It is going to be so awesome. I've been feeling so bla with my life lately, I guess I feel pretty lonely. I say I don't mind my quiet life but I get bored. Well the problem is that I have barely seen anyone, everyone's been busy and we all have different schedules. It's so great that we get 4 months off. I'm happy not to be doing summer semester, although I couldn't anyways since I'll be away. I just need a break from this stupid routine, it actually feels worse than high school in so many ways, since I am commuting, don't have all my friends at my school, and am working. I guess this is the "real world", well I guess I'm not a fan. I miss how young and carefree high school was. It makes a lot of things that I stressed out over seem dumb, and I wish I had appreciated my time there even more than I did. I miss the people, but mostly I just miss seeing my best friends every single day. Also, this past summer was one of the best summers of my life. I can't even describe how awesome it was, I got to do so much in such a short two months. I was worried that I would regret not working but I totally don't, that was my last true childhood summer of pure freedom!

I still feel so young. If anything I almost feel younger than I did last year. It's so strange, it almost feels like I'm aging backwards. I guess I hoped things would change a little more, but in a lot of ways I've hardly changed at all. I still am awkward all the time, which kind of drives me nuts. I feel like peoples' eyes are on me always. I don't want to be self conscious but I guess I am. I can't help it. Where am I going with this? I don't know. When I'm sick I also get a little crazy. Maybe I should stop now.

Goodnight world. Oh wait it's only 8 so goodbye!